Currently Watching Pay It Forward see related

i have decided that i want this to be a summer of change for me. i want my life to mean something and i hope to find that in helping others. i have a firm belief in the saying "life gives to the givers" and starting right now, i am going to try my hardest to be as selfless as i can. i want to start donating more of my time and money towards things that really mean something and to stop being so materialistic. i want to make a difference in peoples lives.

for starters, i will be cutting my hair off very soon and donating it to locks of love. while this is a little scary to me, i am trying to come to the realization that some child with cancer needs it more than i do. im sad and a little terrified, but excited too.

you all have a lovely summer.

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love, amberlie.

Currently Listening Chariot By Gavin DeGraw see related

it has been quite awhile for me. well, to sum things up i am doing much better. i am still hung up on him, and i am moving back in with my mom. nothing else going on there.

i love summerrrrr!!! not going to school is the best. i am working, swimming, tanning, and working out alot. but it all gets old. im not doing anything great this summer so yall hit me up so we can hang out.

i do miss my friends. i havent seen my bestie since school got out :(  i miss you staci!

oh and my car is all fixed from my wreck, i finally got air conditioning back in it yesterday and boy does it feel good.

how about yall come see me at mama's pizza. im there as much as i am at home. <3

i love summerrr.

comment please.

xoxoamberlie.

I am not a xanga-whiner. I do not think xanga is the appropriate place for people to be spilling their guts about their tormented teenage years. Although I will not be informing you of all the details of the things going on in my life right now, there is one thing i would like my fellow xangans to know:

I am having a really hard time with things right now. I honestly have not ever felt this depressed in my life. I am overcome with feelings of loneliness. This is not a random hormone-drawn adolescent emotion. A simultaneous series of upsetting events occured recently and I am having a very hard time coping. I really need to talk to someone, anyone right now, so if you are willing to lend an ear, i would appreciate it more than you could ever know. I really need my friends right now. I have never felt this alone and to be perfectly honest, I am terrified.

I need to know that someone is there for me.

love: your's truely.

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To add to the horror that has been this week, I would like to announce the anticipated arrival of the massive pimple that I have been harvesting right next to my nose. I am very aware of it's existance, so please stop reminding me about it. Thank you.

march 16, 2006......get my car.

april 5, 2006..........wreck my car.

i am so angry. oh the bitter irony.

comments are appreciated at this time.

Currently Listening Ms New Booty By Bubba Sparxxx see related

21 comments?! yall are great. now if i could just get that same response everytime...

today was orchestra UIL. we kicked ass. being up there on stage making music with the best people in the world was definitely tear jerking. yeah...i cried.

i got 5 days at work this week...thats the shit. my paycheck is gonna be huge. which is really great since im getting my car next week!! i dont know what im gonna get yet but the point is that i will be driving everywhere by myself.

by the way, was anybody else as moved by the fatal choices program as i was? it was by far the most moving thing ive witnessed probably in my entire life. i was like sobbing in the auditorium. it was really amazing. the sad thing is that the people that it was really directed towards took it as a joke and werent even paying attention. that was frustrating. i only wish that people could have got what i got out of the program. i dont want to say that it changed my life, but i definitely see things differently now and i think it will help me make better choices later...thats all. i just wanted to share that.

thats enough out of me.

ps. happy birthday staci! thank you for being my best friend.

xoxoamberlie.

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